It has now been exactly two months since our family has found out about us. Okay really two months and a few days. Since then Zac and I have been a couple around everyone in our family, thought out in public we act just like any brother or sister. No one has caught on in our circle of friends except Carrick but he always knew.
Biting my lip as I come out of my thoughts, I watch as Zac sleeps on the couch napping. We had been up all night yesterday. We had decided spur of the moment to go out and get tattoos and then we had spent all of last night making love after getting them.
Shaking my head, I lift up the pair of pajama shorts I am wearing around his house and look at the tattoo I have on my thigh. It is a quote from Romeo and Juliet. For never was a story of more woe than this of Juliet and her Romeo. After the conversation Zac and I had on our false names, I have come to the conclusion that Romeo and Juliet is our story, minus I don't think any of us will be dying anytime soon. At least I hope not.
Pulling my pajama shorts back down, I watch Zac again and smirk thinking of his tattoo. It is also a quote from Romeo and Juliet. It's so simple compared to mine. Give me my sin again. His sin being in reference to me and not the kiss in which Romeo referred to in the book.
"Avie," Zac's voice says breaking me from my thoughts. I turn to look at him and watch as he sits up from the couch.
"Enjoy your nap?" I ask as I stand from the floor and walk over, sitting beside him on the couch. "You looked so peaceful sleeping that I didn't want to wake you up," I tell him as I lean in and peck his lips lightly.
Zac just nods and lets a hand rest on my leg, "I go to see Shepherd in an hour," he informs me. Just this month Kate has finally agreed to let Zac see Shepherd again. I think Natalie helped that. All it took was Zac complaining to Taylor enough who in turn complained to Natalie.
I nod at his words, "I know," I tell him as I smile. "I'm glad you are getting to see him. He deserves to see his daddy, even if he and Kate caught us in a not so good position," I sigh. I have hated myself for that ever since. I hated that it probably scarred him. Maybe one day he won't need therapy.
"I wish Kate thought like that," Zac sighs as he stands from the couch and I just sit back.
It seems like time flies and soon Zac is leaving me to go and see his son. I sometimes wish he was allowed to bring Shepherd here, but I know that is pushing it right now. Kate is being generable enough just letting Zac come to her house to see him.
Laying down on the couch, I close my eyes and drift off, knowing I have nothing else to do right now.
A few hours later, I am startled awake by the door slamming and I raise my head, watching as Zac comes back in. "Zac?"
Zac turns to look at me and I can just feel the anger rising off of him. It scares me to see it and feel it. I'm half sure it has something to do with Kate though I don't know what.
"Is everything okay?" I ask as I sit up and watch as he plops down on the couch, holding a few pieces of paper in his head.
"No," he spits out and I jump in the air at the venom in his voice. "Kate filed for divorce and sole custody of Shepherd. She is petitioning to have my parental rights revoked."
I frown when he informs me of what Kate is doing. It just makes me hate her that much more. Can't she understand that ripping a child away from their parent won't solve anything? It certainly won't bring Zac back to her if that is what she is trying to do. 'I'm sorry," I whisper as I walk over to Zac and sit down on his lap.
Zac just sighs and wraps his arms around me, his hand putting the papers on the coffee table. "I just wish she'd leave Shepherd out of this. Divorcing me is fine but I don't want her taking away my child. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him."
Chewing on my lip, I rest my head against his shoulder, "Then maybe," I start as I take a deep breath almost afraid to say what I am, "maybe you should just leave me and go back to Kate," I tell him as I frown. I don't want to lose him but then again I don't want him to lose Shepherd either. "Make your family with Kate work."
"No," Zac states and I feel him kiss my forehead. "I'm staying with you. I will find a way to fight her for Shepherd but I am not losing you in the process babe," he tells me, his voice getting almost stern. He is being serious and standing his ground. He isn't going to let me go.
I sigh and pull away standing up. "Why? I don't want you to lose your son because of me," I snap out as I shake my head. "I would hate myself," I mutter as I shake my head and feel tears stinging at my eyes. "I already hate myself for what Kate is doing."
"Avie," Zac sighs as he stands up too and reaches out for me but I pull away from his grasp and head towards the bedroom. "Don't do this," he yells as he follows behind me. "Don't you dare fucking run away."
Getting to the bedroom I open the closet and start to grab a suitcase, feeling a hand grab me roughly on the arm. Turning I come face to face with Zac. "I'm not running away," I tell him as I shake my head. "I'm just letting you keep your son in your life."
Zac laughs bitterly as he keeps a hold of my arm, squeezing it some so I can't pull away. "Bullshit Avery. Leaving me is running away. So what, Kate wants to cause some hell. Let her, I will find a way to beat her. But I refuse to let you go away. We fought so long for this. For us and I am not giving it up when I am finally at some sort of peace."
Sighing, I drop the suitcase and I feel his grip on my arm loosen. I'm sure by tomorrow I am going to have marks there. "Fine," I concede letting him know he has won for now. "You win, I will stay, but if you lose Shepherd I am going to hate myself so much," I frown my voice breaking as I feel a few tears going down my cheek.
"I won't lose Shep," he tells me so confident. I just nod, hoping I can believe him.
As I stand there not saying anything, I watch as he starts to lean closer to me, soon closing the distance between us with his lips against mine. Have I said I am addicted to his lips? I hope so because it's true. I could kiss him all day if I had the opportunity to.
Kissing him back, I slowly let my arms go around his neck and back him towards the bed, pushing him down before letting myself fall over him.
"What do you think you are doing?" Zac asks in between kisses as his hands find their way under the shirt I have on, causing me to shiver just a bit.
"Taking you," I tell him as I smirk and pull away from the kiss long enough to take my shirt off and throw it to the floor. After it is gone I lean in and kiss him again, my hand going to unbutton the shirt he has on. I just really need him. To let him know that I am not running away right now.
Zac soon starts to help me unbutton his shirt and then he pulls away, slipping his shirt off and throwing it to the floor with mine, "I think I like it when you take me," he smirks before leaning up to kiss me again.
I just laugh against his lips and kiss him hard, reaching between us to undo his jeans and slid them off with his boxer briefs, "I like you allowing me to take you," I whisper into his mouth as I feel him slip off my pajama shorts in a hurry and I blush remembering that I don't have any panties on.
I feel Zac pull away from the kiss and he looks me over, "Naughty," he mutters as his hand slips between my legs and he rubs me a few times before kissing me again. His hand soon moves out from between my legs and his hands rest on either side of my hips, guiding me down on him.
A moan escapes my mouth as he fills me up and I kiss him harder. I love how he feels inside of me. I always have. "Zac," I say on his lips. "I haven't taken my birth control today."
"One time won't hurt anything," Zac whispers as he soon starts to move me on him and I just moan out, deciding not to move away from him. Maybe he is right. One time won't hurt anything. I can just take my birth control tomorrow and everything will be fine.
Biting down on his bottom lip, I turn us over so he is on top and I groan as he starts to thrust in and out of me, hard and fast. It's the roughest he has ever been with me and a part of me would be lying if I said I didn't like it. I do like it.
"Fuck, Zac," I growl out as I dig my nails into his back and close my eyes as his pace stays the same and he soon brings me over the edge, my walls closing in around his cock.
Not long after I reach my orgasm, I feel him shudder above me and then rest his head on my shoulder.
As we both lay there catching our breath, I feel him slide out of me and I smile, content. "I love you," I tell him once I can speak.
"I love you too Avie," Zac smiles when he raises his head to look at me. "So much."
I smirk and peck his lips again, "You know, since I can't leave you, you can never leave me," I laugh as I hold him closer. "Never."
Zac just lays his head against my breast and I hear him sigh, "I will never leave you Avery Laurel Hanson. Never."