Entering the reception hall the next day after Zac's wedding, I look around until I find Jessica. If I stay close to her then I will be fine. I have been trying to avoid Zac as much as I can and besides the family pictures that we took at alter I think I am doing a good job.
I'm afraid that he is still mad about the kiss from last night, which of course he has every right to be mad about. I know I shouldn't have kissed him. I shouldn't but I was desperate.
I may have also hated the fact that the kiss made whatever strange attraction I felt towards Zac that much worse. I am one sick individual and I'm sure I am going to hell one day.
"Earth to Avery," a voice says bringing me out of my thoughts and I look at Jessica, raising an eyebrow. "You want to go sit down beside Stephanie and Ashley?" she asks pointing to two of our long time friends.
"Sure," I smile as I lead the way over to the table where they are sitting at. I know I am failing at doing a good job at pretending nothing is wrong with me. I am doing a bad job at showing that I am somewhere else right now.
When we reach the table, I sit down and give a smile to both Stephanie and Ashley while Jessica immediately starts to talk to them. Jessica is always good at talking to people where I tend to keep to myself sometimes, especially when something is bothering me.
"So, Avery," Ashley speaks and I turn to look at her. "Any special boys yet in your life?" she asks so innocently and I immediately blush at the thought. "I think I was your age when I had my first boyfriend."
I just laugh some and reach down taking off the god forsaken heels Kate had all the bridesmaids wear, "There is this one boy," I admit as my mind drifts off to Zac. "But he is older than me and I just don't think it will ever happen," I say not revealing the whole truth.
Ashley just smirks at my words, "Aww, you never know," she shrugs. "Sometimes the things you think will never happen do."
"Trust me, this one won't," I tell her as I stand up, holding onto my heels. "I'm going to go get some fresh air, it's hot in here," I say offering Ashley a friendly smile before I walk away.
It's not that I don't want to be around her but I know if I stay she is just going to keep on about my special guy.
Stepping outside, I keep a loose grip on my heels as I head towards the parking lot. It's a hot day in Tulsa but with all those people in a small building, being outside feels much better right now. As I near my parents SUV, I stop in my tracks as I see Zac leaned against it, his shirt unbuttoned some. Walking just a bit closer, my nostrils are hit with a smell I'm unfamiliar with.
"Zac," I whisper as I step closer to him, making a face as he unintentionally blows smoke in my face as he turns to face me. "What are you doing?"
Zac just shrugs at me as he puts whatever he is smoking between his lips again, "Getting high," he tells me as if I should know. "Want a smoke?" he asks as he hands what I now suspect to be a joint to me.
I shake my head, "I've never smoked before," I tell him blushing some. At least he isn't yelling at me like he did last night. I'm glad for that.
He laughs some, "Sometimes you just have to live some Avie, take it," he says as he keeps his hand extended out to me.
Chewing my lip, I slowly take the joint from him and inspect it. It doesn't look like how I imagined it would look.
"You know, it's not going to bit you," Zac mutters after I inspect the joint he handed me.
I roll my eyes and put the joint to my lips. Slowly I inhale it and move it away quickly as I start to cough, which just gets Zac to laughing. "Nice to know you found that funny?" I mutter sarcastically as I finally stop coughing.
"Sorry," he smirks before taking the joint out of my hands and putting it back to his lips. "You'll get better with time," he says as he exhales and I feel myself blush more. Even he makes smoking looking good.
I shrug, "Who says I'll do it again?" I ask as I move and stand beside him, laying my shoes down beside where I am standing.
Zac turns to look at me and I nearly faint when he gives me that tempting crooked smile of his. The one that I'm sure makes countless fans of his lose it. "Everyone always does it again," he winks as he nduges me playfully. "And you'll do it again because I find it cool and you want to impress your big older brother."
I just glare at him playfully, "You know me so well," I joke as I nudge him back.
"I'm sorry," he says after I nudge him.
"For what?" I ask confused as to why he is saying sorry to me.
Zac runs a hand through his hair as he drops the joint on the ground and steps on it some, "For yelling at you last night," he tells me as he looks back up at me and into my eyes.
I chew on my lip, surprised that he is apologizing, "I'm sorry for..." I start to say but I am shushed when Zac puts his finger to my lips.
"Don't be sorry for kissing me," he mutters as he moves his finger away from my lips. "And I won't be sorry for liking it," he whispers ever so softly before leaning in and pressing his lips to mine.
I stand there for what seems like hours though I know in reality it's only been minutes. I am in shock that Zac is actually kissing me. His lips are against mine, and that thought is enough to make me return the kiss.
As we kiss, I feel Zac move slightly and soon I realize he has me pinned up against the back of our parents SUV. God I know this kiss is wrong and not just because he is my brother but because it's his wedding day and we are in the parking lot of the place where his reception is being held. We could be caught at anytime.
Kissing him deeper, I feel his tongue brush across my lips and soon I'm opening my mouth for him, allowing his tongue to entrance. I hear myself moan just a bit into the kiss as his hips move into mine and I close my eyes, my hand soon going up and into his hair which I pull lightly.
Hearing someone clear their voice, Zac and I both pull away at the same time and I freeze seeing Taylor standing there, staring at us. His mouth drops a little when he sees it's me that Zac was kissing.
"Y..your umm your wife wants you inside," Taylor speaks as he shakes his head a few times and just stands there watching us. "They are about to do the first dance."
Zac rolls his eyes at Taylor's words and turns away from me, heading inside as if nothing just happened. As if just seconds ago his tongue wasn't in my mouth.
Sighing, I follow behind Zac after picking my shoes up.
"Avie," Taylor says as he starts to walk beside me. "Exactly what did I walk in on so to speak?" he asks me as I turn my head to look at him.
I look down and shrug, "I'm not sure," I say honestly as I walk ahead of Taylor and go inside. As I do, I come to stand beside Jessica and watch as Zac dances with his wife. I can't help but feel a ting of jealousy as I watch them.
"Don't they look good together?" Jessica whispers to me and I almost want to laugh out loud at that.
"Yes, they look really good together," I lie as I do my best to put on a fake smile. For the rest of the night I am going to try to forget that I hate Kate and I will also try forgetting that Zac had kissed me in the parking lot.
Once the song ends, everyone claps for them and the dj soon starts playing another song, this time it's a song I at least know. It's the song by ABBA called Dancing Queen.
Watching as people get on the floor to start dancing, I turn to walk away but stop when I feel someone grab my arm. Turning my head, I come face to face with Zac.
"You aren't getting away that fast," he says giving me that damned crooked smile again. "Dance with me Aviebaby," he mutters as he pulls me out onto the dance floor without giving me a choice.
Going with him I just laugh, "Like I can ever tell you no," I smile as I began to dance with