The day after hooking up with Carrick, I was never more relieved to head home and be away from Zac. I knew he was mad and maybe being away from him would calm him down. Make him get over the fact that I had hurt him by doing what he didn't want me to do.
Though now, almost a month later, I stood backstage and watched as my brother's performed their concert at the Chicago House of Blues. Zac had ignored me most of the day and I don't know why it hurt me so much. I mean I knew he would. I knew he would still be mad. Zac could hold grudges with the best of them.
As they finished the show and did their bow, coming backstage, I move out of the way as they walk past me. Zac just gives me a look and I'm sure if looks could kill I would be dead right now.
I sigh and I decide to follow after him, watching as he goes to the showers instead of following Taylor and Isaac outside. I, against my better judgment, follow him into the showers, hearing the water already running.
"Zac," I start but stop when I walk closer and see him naked. It's the first time I have ever seen him fully naked and he is gorgeous, stunning even. I am not sure if he is still self conscious thanks to Kate but he really shouldn't be.
Zac turns to face me and just makes a face, "Didn't mom and dad teach you never to walk in when someone was in the shower?" he asks, his eyebrow raising. Even after speaking he makes no effort to cover himself. He just keeps showering.
I blush and look down away from him. "They did," I say as I shrug, "but I just wanted to talk to you regardless."
"Talk about what?" Zac asks me, his voice growing harsh as if he knows I want to talk about Carrick and what he had seen in Charlotte between us.
I look up at him, "Carrick," I whisper, watching as Zac rolls his eyes at me saying his name. "I'm sorry you had to see us having sex," I tell him honestly. "I..I never meant for it to happen. It just did," I shrug.
Zac turns the water off and reaches for a towel wrapping it around himself. "Did you like it Avie?" he asks me as he pushes past me and heads to where he has clean clothes waiting for him.
At his question, I chew on my lip, wondering if I should be honest or lie. I'm afraid to tell him that I did like having sex with Carrick. Instead I chose to just nod my head yes as he eyes me waiting for an answer.
"Figured you did," Zac spits out harshly as he drops the towel and gets dressed. "I told you not to kiss anyone else Avery. By kissing, I meant sex too," he says as he turns his back to me. "Or did you just forget my words, forget what I told you?"
I sigh and run a hand through my hair, "I didn't forget," I tell Zac, letting him know, I did in fact remember what he had told me. "I just wasn't thinking at the time. I was high and I was horny. I wanted to do something bad for once and he was there and we had sex," I explain knowing with the mood Zac is in this is pointless.
"Oh and what about keeping contact with him?" Zac asks me and I swallow hard. I should have known that Carrick would tell Zac that we have been texting back and forth. That we have been getting to know each other.
I look at the wall when he turns to face me again. I'm not sure how to answer him about keeping contact with Carrick.
Zac laughs as I stay silent, "What, you didn't expect the guy I consider one of my best friends to tell me he was talking to my sister?" he asks me his voice still so harsh and cold. I hate it. "You know, he really likes you Avie."
"I didn't know that," I say honestly. I never expected that Carrick would like me. I mean I know he flirted with me in Charlotte and some of his texts have been flirty but I just thought that was how he was.
"Well he does," Zac mutters as he walks closer to me and looks me in the eyes. "It hurts me to say this but be with him Avery," he whispers so soft that even I'm not sure I have heard him right. "At least you guys wouldn't ever have to hide a relationship."
Frowning at his words, I look down, "Is that what you want with me Zac?" I ask him wondering if he wants to date me. "Is that why you told me to not kiss anyone the same day you told me we had to stop what we were doing?"
Zac reaches out and pushes my chin up so I am looking at him again. I just stare into his eyes wondering what he is going to say. "I told you we had to stop because Taylor threatened to tell everyone if I didn't stop messing around with you," he sighs. "I told you not to kiss anyone because I was selfish. I thought that maybe one..." he starts but shakes his head.
"What did you think?" I ask wondering what he was going to say but stopped himself from saying.
Zac shakes his head again, "Nothing, Avery, it is nothing," he smiles as he moves away from and heads towards the doors. "Just be happy with Carrick," he shrugs before leaving the showers.
I stand there frowning as he leaves. He has basically given me permission to be with Carrick but yet it hurts. It hurts knowing that he has given up on me and I also want to know what he was going to say. what did he think could happen?
Shaking my head this time, I walk out of the showers and head to the hotel that is connected onto the House of Blues. It's where my family is staying as tomorrow is yet another concert at the same House of Blues.
When I make it to the lobby, I see Zac talking to Kate by the elevators and I roll my eyes. I hate how he can be so close to me one minute and be with her as if nothing emotionally has been going on with us. Scanning the lobby for my mother, I finally find her in a corner on her cell pone.
I start to walk over to her as she is who I am rooming with tonight but on my way there, I nearly bump into someone, stopping in my tracks, looking up to see a familiar set of blue eyes looking down at me. "Carrick," I smile, feeling my cheeks get hot.
Carrick smirks and leans in, kissing my cheek softly, "You look pretty when you blush," he whispers in my ear before pulling away. "I was hoping I'd run into you. I was wondering if you wanted to get lunch tomorrow before the show, maybe after the walk?"
I nod, "Sure," I smile and nod, agreeing to go out with him for lunch tomorrow. At my words he smiles even bigger and moves out of my way, heading to the elevators. I'm almost to my mom when I hear him say my name again so I turn to look at him.
"Also did you make Zac mad?" Carrick ask me as he raises an eyebrow and I look at him confused.
"What do you mean?" I ask not sure what he means.
Carrick pushes a button for the elevator but keeps his eyes on me, "He kept giving you a death glare during On The Rocks," he shrugs as the elevator doors open and he steps in. "See you tomorrow pretty brown eyes," he calls out before the doors shut.
I blush more and turn, walking over to my mother right as she hangs up and eyes me. "What?" I ask wondering why she is eyeing me like that.
"What was that between you and Carrick?" she asks as she puts her cell phone in her purse.
I smirk and shrug, "Nothing," I lie as I turn to walk to the elevators, my mother following. "He was just inviting me to lunch," I tell her as I press the button for the elevator. After I tell her the last line I see her just raise her eyebrow even more but she stays silent.
When the doors open, we get in and she presses the button to our floor. For once in my life I have never been happier at the silence between us. I know she is probably thinking of reasons as to why Carrick wants to have lunch and some of those reasons are probably right.