Waking the next day as the sun comes through the room, I raise my eyebrow, finding Zac gone and I sit up in bed, holding the sheets around me, "Zac?" I ask loudly so it can be heard through the whole house. Not getting an answer, I get out of bed and dress into the clothes I had on the night before.
Leaving the bedroom, I head towards the living room and stop when I find Carrick and Zac sitting in the kitchen. Both of them look up at me and it's apparent I have walked in on some big discussion from the looks on their faces.
"What did I walk in on?" I ask curiously as I walk farther into the kitchen. I'm almost afraid to know but I feel like I need to know because I think it's about me.
Zac looks to Carrick after I ask my question and I notice him raise an eyebrow as if he is waiting for Carrick to respond.
Carrick just returns the same look that Zac gives him, before turning to face me. "I....ummm. I found you two this morning," he tells me, keeping his voice low and no hatred or anger in it. "I came home and saw you two in my bed, butt naked. I was just getting an explanation from Zac."
At his words, I swallow hard. "And what did Zac say?" I ask before I look at Zac wondering if this time Zac will answer my question. "What explanation did he give?" I ask wondering if he told Carrick everything. That after Carrick popped the question I came back home and fucked my brother in his bed.
"I told him the truth Avery," Zac does answer. "That we made love to each other and that you want to be with me."
Gulping I feel shocked. Yeah I did want to be Zac, but I was sure there was a way we could have done it without telling Carrick. Without hurting him, but then again he had caught us, so I guess he did have to know everything.
"I will let you two talk alone now," Zac says as he stands from the kitchen table and walks down the hall, towards the bedrooms.
I stand there and just stare at Carrick for what feels like forever. I'm just waiting for him to start yelling at me but he doesn't. "I guess you want this back?" I ask as I reach down and slip the engagement ring off, holding it out to him.
Carrick shakes his head, "Keep it, I bought it for you," he smiles as he stands up from the table and walks to the counter where his coffee pot is. I just watch as he gets a cup of coffee for him and pours another. "It looked good on you anyway. I don't think anyone else would like it and I sure as hell don't want my money back for it. Pawning it would just be a shame too."
"I get it," I laugh some as I walk to the kitchen table and sit down. "I'll keep the ring."
Carrick turns back around, coming back to the table with both cups of coffee in hand. When he sits down, he puts one of the cups in front of me. "I knew he liked you from the start you know," he informs me and I raise my eyebrow.
"You knew?" I ask shocked by his admission. How did he know? Was it that obvious? Why did he chose to be with me if he knew?
I watch as Carrick takes a sip of his coffee, "Zac told me not long after he sang On The Rocks for you at Chicago. I just had a sinking feeling there was more to his death glare. I confronted him and he confessed everything, but he told me he wanted me to be with you so that you could have everything he could never give you."
I process his words and pick up my coffee cup, taking a drink from it. "And you were okay with that?" I ask. "I mean my brother having feelings for me and doing what he wanted?"
"I liked you Avery," Carrick shrugs. "I wanted so much to love you, be loved by you. I would have done anything by that point to be near you, so yeah, I was okay with doing what he wanted," he nods as he drinks some more of his coffee. "The fact that you two had feelings for each other, it freaked me out but I thought I could stop them. I thought maybe you could come to love me like you loved Zac."
Looking down at my coffee cup, I sigh, "I'm sorry that I can't love you like I love him," I say before picking the cup up again and taking a drink. "You deserve that, being happy."
"You deserve happiness too Avery, even if it is with your brother," Carrick says and from his words, I sense nothing but honesty. He believes what he is saying. "I'm letting you go free. Whenever he decides to go back to Tulsa you can go with him."
Smiling I nod and finish my coffee, "Thank you," I tell him as I stand from the table and take my cup to the sink. Taking one last look at him, I leave the kitchen to go find Zac, not surprised when I find him in the guest bedroom.
Zac who is turning on the radio, turns to face me once he has it on and turned up. A smile coming on over his face as some Beach Boys song comes on. I'm pretty sure it's called Don't Worry Baby.
"We can be together," he says as he walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist. "We can finally be together," he smiles as he sways his body back and forth to the music.
I wrap my arms around his neck, "When we go back to Tulsa we'll have to keep it a secret though," I shrug though I smile knowing he is mine, even if it is going to be a secret. A secret that I'm not sure I want to keep.
Zac just leans in and pecks my lips quickly, "Don't worry baby," he tells me in time with the music which makes him crack up and he pulls away from, starting to dance around the room on his own as he starts to sing the song.
I can't help but laugh as I watch him, raising an eyebrow as he takes my hand and makes me start to dance with him as well. "Zac, we look stupid," I tell him though I'm not sure it will make a difference.
It doesn't make a difference, he just keeps moving us around the room and singing the song which makes me laugh some more. I wish I could I have the optimism he seems to have though about things when we get back to Tulsa. I can't help but worry though. I am nervous and scared that we won't be able to keep this thing a secret.
When the song ends, Zac falls down on the bed and takes me with him. I stop laughing and look over at him. "How can you be so optimistic about things?" I ask him when he looks over at me.
Zac just shrugs, "Because I'm no longer with that bitch. Nothing else can go wrong Avery, even you and I. We can't go wrong," he says before he leans in and kisses me on the lips. "Now how about we make love again?" he asks on my lips and I just nod my head in response. I'm still the same girl I was the day he married Kate. I can't say no to anything he wants from me.