Laying in the hospital bed I smile down as I hold my newborn daughter in my arms. She is so beautiful, so beautiful and tiny. She is much tinier than Junia ever was at birth.
"You are so precious my little Brennan Taylor Gerety," I smile as I use her full name. Brennan had been Carrick's choice while mine had been Taylor. I'm sure Carrick hadn't been happy with it but I felt like it suited her the moment I saw her.
"She is very precious," Carrick yawns from the chair beside the bed which makes me turn my head to look at him.
Moving some I adjust Brennan in my arms, "You were supposed to be asleep," I smile as I watch him stand from the chair, moving to the bed and sitting down beside me.
"I was but then I heard you talking to our daughter and I woke up," Carrick laughs before leaning down and placing a kiss on Brennan's forehead. "You know I think your mom would love to come back here and see her. Heck I'm sure everyone out in the waiting room would love to know we finally have our daughter here. I mean it's been two hours since she was born. We have had enough time bonding with her."
I sigh knowing he has a point, "What if Taylor wants to come back here?" I ask as I chew on my lip. I am afraid that Taylor will take one look at Brennan and know she is his. That Carrick is not the dad of this little girl.
Carrick kisses my cheek softly, "Then he will come back here. It's not like he will be able to tell Avery. Brennan looks like every newborn. Anyway he has no idea he should even be questioning her paternity. We did get together as soon as you guys got back. It's not like he knows we didn't have sex until after you knew you were pregnant."
I nod swallowing a lump in my throat. Carrick has a point, he always has a point. "Then go tell them about our daughter," I smile when I turn to look at him. "Tell them about Bree," I say using a nickname on her already.
When Carrick stands and leaves, I turn my attention back to Brennan who opens her eyes, looking around the room. I do feel somewhat guilty for lying and not being honest about her father but I have been down this road with Zac, I can't go down it again. Anyway just seven months ago he had told me he loved his family too much to ever leave them. If Natalie knew about Brennan really being Taylor's she'd flip and leave him, I mean she was after all part of the reason why I left Junia behind three years ago.
"Mommy did the right thing," I tell Brennan when she looks at me. "Mommy gave you a daddy who will love you and be there for you no matter," I nod knowing Carrick will. He loves her already and he is head over heels for Junia who seems to enjoy having him wrapped around her tiny finger.
Smiling I look up at the ceiling, "I just wish you were here Zac," I say as I close my eyes. I do wish Zac were here even if things would be different. "Say a few good words for me up there. Keep my secret safe," I whisper before opening my eyes and laying back on the bed.
Not long after I lay back I watch as Carrick comes back with my mom who as it seems insisted to be the first one back so she could see the new grand-baby first. I just laugh as I watch my mom with her. Feeling sleepy I close my eyes and drift off. I know things still aren't okay but if they can stay this perfect than I am good.